Still

My mind stills howls, panting, daring, wailing,

Staring at the gap where once you pledged love to me.

Am I to wait or move on…

The vacuum shouts, 

Crying the pain out or just faking a happy song.

Then the smiles came with the memories of you,

The scent of your body like balm to my racing senses.

The tears didn’t stop rolling off my cheeks.

 

Crying, lost at your loss. Joyful at your return,

I realized I love you, still.

I love you like I love life.

I want to watch you when you walk, when you sleep, when you’re with me.

I won’t miss a moment. Not for this life.

I love you like each new day waiting to be discovered afresh.

 

How do I tell you that your silence hurts me…

But my heart escapes through my eyes, splashing onto the rag of your kerchief.

My sadness conveyed.

It makes you guilty,but, I love you, still.

I wish I could take your sorrows to be mine.

 

I want my happiness for you.

I’d keep the black rain if I knew that it would get you a rainbow.

Not a tear do I want squeezed through your long, sweet lashes.

I know the hurt you harbour inside.

I fear that hurt too, I fear love lost.

I love that fear itself.

It shows me how much you’re worth after all this time.

As I love you so much,still.

 

This morning you stopped beside me.

Silent speech, as your eyes talk to me.

“I’ve said it once,I’ll say it again.

I thought it was obvious,but then again,

I love you too, still.”

 

(This is a poem I wrote for a friend of mine…he wanted it for an assignment…a love poem…wrote it long back…but I forgot to save it and post it..Asked him for it so he sent it to me…Thanks Pek!)

Tashan- The ishtyle, the good luck, the pharmoola

Seriously, this should be changed to Tashan– the stupid, the starving and the illogical!

Saw Tashan on Sunday with a friend…this time it was not cos we dint get any other tickets but cos we wanted to watch it. So it was kind of a nice surprise when we got tickets and a nice day in spite of the average movie.

Four Main Characters of this film:

• Lakhan Singh a.ka. Bhaiyyaji (Anil Kapoor), wannabe Ennglees speaking, cut-throat gangster who enjoys killing people with sports equipment like racquets and cricket bats…He wants to land a major deal with some foreign delegates (can you believe it? Even local gangsters have delegates!) He enlists Pooja to collect and deposit his money..Later, he finds out that Pooja cannot be trusted and that he has to go look for her to get his money back. He keeps reminding us of the movie’s title every once in a while in case we are all amnesiacs who forget…
• Pooja Singh (Kareena Kapoor), wafer-thin woman who just can’t be trusted. She considers the end and not the means of achieving the end. Flirts to no end while showing off her new healthily achieved bod (or lack of it). Pooja flirts till Jimmy thinks she’s in love with him..Then she runs away with Bhaiyyaji’s money…and conceals it all over India(in about 7 days) Yes! She does look hot through most of the film and the confidence that has given her has really improved her performance.
• Jimmy Cliff (Saif Ali Khan) , man with a “Jaarge Boos’ accent, works at a call center and teaches by day…not a bad guy to have around but has character shades of grey when he keeps joining the winning side…self- preservation seems to be his main aim…along with a little flirtation with real life love Kareena…(I don’t think their chemistry is all that great though.) He agrees to teach Bhaiyyaji English so that he pleases the ‘delegation’ he keeps vaguely referring to. He falls for Pooja and helps her flick Bhaiyyaiji’s money…
• Bachchan Pande (Akshay Kumar), once an electricity thief of a cute little village, currently preferred hitman of Bhaiyyaji. He has to catch Pooja and kill the Englees Guruji (Saif). There is nothing he can do…other than resist Kareena..who turns out to be his long lost love Gudiya from that village…yes yes..there is a flashback…how can a Bollywood film not have a flashback?BUT, Akshay is the saving grace of this dismal movie…without his performance and Kareena’s glamour..this movie will be languishing in some cd seller’s storeroom….

All this seems fine. What fault could I possibly find in this film?

1. The car flying off the cliff into the water was so badly animated, that it seemed to have been cut from some old Hindi Masala movie of the 70’s…the producers spent so much on clothes and the supposed ‘style’ of Tashan. Why couldn’t they get better special effects too?
2. If this movie had been about time machines and rapid geography changes between locations then it would have been just fine. But, that’s not what this movie is about is it? Even if going from Ganga Ghat to Kerala to Rajasthan( north India to south India) in seven days by lorry, jeep etc is not REALLY possible, Tashan makes it REEL-LY possible in minutes.
3. Tashan also seems to be a tribute to the old gangster movies of the 70’s but sometimes its not..Director saab…make up your mind..is this a seriously bad movie, a tribute to bad movies, a good parody of bad movies or a bad parody of good movies?
4. Akshay Kumar’s action sequences were interesting but mostly unrealistic. He fights with some gold-silk-tracksuit-outfitted-martial-arts guys in a scene that reminded me of one of Jackie Chan’s Rush Hours. The desi, Bachchan Pandey displays an untapped ‘power’ to spring upwards by stepping on any object that crosses his path…Makes the movie slightly B grade… Maybe Tashan is a parody of stupid action movies…Are these goof ups intentional or otherwise? I don’t think even silly Martial Arts movies have so much of flying, walking and swimming on air!
5. Yeah, Akshay Kumar doesn’t even blink when he’s electrocuted.(Forget the harsh screams of traditional torture victims…this man has ishtyle) He’s not normal….He’s Bachan Pandey (and that’s the chief logic behind everything he does.period)
6. Saif can’t dance to save his life!
7. The dialogs just killed me….The Hinglish that Bhaiyyaji speaks was a bit funny in the beginning but it was so overdone to the point that my brain was seriously fried trying to understand what he was saying!It was unclear, un-funny, and yes boring!
8. All Bhaiyyaji’s goons are uniformed in really stupid tracksuits or even jodhpurs for the climax…Did they really have that much surplus money to dole out to Aki Narula for costumes?
9. All VIshal-Shekhar’s songs sounded alike to me…I liked only Phalak tak…Can’t remember the rest…
10. The climax is stupid…Pooja is all helpless and swaying weakly in the arms of Bachan Pandey but suddenly she gets all murderous and picks up a gun and starts shooting..later she kills Bhaiyyaji by driving a sword through his torso.
    

Throughout Tashan, you get strong hints of Vijay Krishna Acharya (the director’s) possible Quentin Tarantino fixation. The movie was filmed in a range of picturesque Indian locations like Kerala, Uttaranchal, Rajasthan, Ladakh, Mumbai and of course for the international component- Greece….The stunt sequences were good, with good effects and totally unbelievable in the process…The songs were beautifully shot…Well you win some you lose some…Take Kareena for example, yes she’s a size zero (all over: P) and yes she just looks starved, hungry and mean…which totally fits her character of vengeful, scumbag femme fatale. Saif looks red (sun-burnt tomato red like he just sat thru a very painful body-waxing session (which is probably true cos he has to try and look young for his latest arm candy Kareena). Saif, dearie, I suggest you regain your colour…that tan is overdone and fake…real MEN are not hairless and pink! What you need is a lot of ice cubes and not such stupid roles with or without your girl…And Akshay just looks unwashed and uncouth…which he was in the beginning of the movie and somehow forgot and became seedha saadha by then end…Gudiya’s (Kareena’s influence and love supposedly).

And I read this somewhere…don’t know if it is true… After Tashan’s cast made an appearance in the Indian Premiere League for the Mumbai Indians team, Yash Raj Films tied up with Mumbai dabbawallas for promos! Apparently, the dabbawallas, wore bright Tashan T-shirts with Tashan stickers and paan attached to their boxes, too. Fresh new faces of the promos- the dabbawallas!

The Verdict: Watch if you want mindless entertainment…Just go watch it to escape the sun whatever…but don’t analyze it for a story…

What do you want to do this weekend?

What Can you do in a weekend? If you’d have asked me last week I would have said…” nothing machan..boring man..Am going to be at home dude..My life is running out and I have so much to do “

What would I like to do on the weekend?

1. Shoe-shopping **
2. Lazing around in front of the TV ****
3. Meeting Suppie for lunch etc *****
4. Patting dog’s head ***** ( it’s not just something I do for my doggie…It keeps me happy too.. Oh!Doggie melty-eyed heart-warming look)
5. Watch a movie ***
6. Bake? **
7. Clean room * who said I like to do that?
8. SEW ***** Damn, I have to thread the machine again…make that ****

I am now very aware of my poor life….no social life… and only 8 things on my list! That’s it? And one of them being the stereotypical feminine pursuit of happiness-shopping! whatever! Am I normal? Is it geeky if I say I wanna learn lesser known MS Word tips or prep myself for working on Framemaker from Monday? Maybe I could set up more filters to clear the junk out from my inbox…No…then…yeah I know..I can spend hours downloading free wallpapers, icons, graphics and fonts in the hope that I am going to use all/ at least one iof them in that great new smashing drop dead gorgeous header I am going to design for my blog…Yeah…I will do it someday..Let’s see, I just need to learn Photoshop first

Now that I have made my list a little better, let me tell you all that I am going to be working this weekend(yes…Saturday AND Sunday) and probably other weekends till May 12th…ooops…sigh….So what’s the use of thinking bout things to do? I can bet you that if my weekend was actually off I wouldn’t have thought of these many things in the first place I really don’t know what WORK exactly I am doing either…guess I can save that for another rant post..what say?

So, what would you like to do this weekend? Tell me the first thing that comes to your mind….No censoring please..We don’t need no Thought Policing! It can be as silly as sleeping upside down to something nerdy like reading your official mails (and then not reacting on them) just to keep ‘ahead’ of work…